HomeTherapySelf-esteem and identity
Abroad, you introduce yourself from scratch every single time.
Who you are when nobody here knows your history, and everything you were fluent at takes three times the effort.
What we work on
- Naming the losses honestly. Language, status, an easy social life, being funny without effort. None of them are tragedies, which is exactly why nobody lets you grieve them. Saying them out loud usually stops them running the show.
- The voice you use on yourself. Living abroad hands you a dozen small failures a day. What you say to yourself after each one is the part that can actually be changed.
- An identity that is not borrowed. There is a version of you built from what your family expects, and another built from what people here assume when they hear the accent. Neither of them is the whole thing.
- Challenges the right size. Not 'make Spanish friends'. The specific, small, slightly uncomfortable thing you could do this week.
Nobody warns you that moving costs you your competence
At home you knew how you came across. You could be quick, warm, ironic, professional — whatever you happened to be good at — without thinking about it. Here every one of those has to pass through a language you are still learning, and it arrives flattened. People meet a slower, plainer version of you and treat you accordingly, and after a while you start to believe them.
For international students there is an extra edge. Everyone around you seems to have arrived already knowing someone, and admitting you are lonely feels like admitting you failed at the one thing this year was supposed to give you.
This is not vanity and it is not weakness. Identity is built partly out of being recognised by other people, and a move takes nearly all of that away at once. It can be rebuilt — though rarely by waiting for it to happen.
What actually changes
Not a new personality. A less punishing relationship with the one you have.
- You stop reading every awkward exchange in Spanish as evidence about your worth.
- You can say what you actually think in a room, in English or in imperfect Spanish, without rehearsing it first.
- The gap between who you were at home and who you are here stops being a wound and becomes information.
- You choose what to keep from where you came from, instead of losing it by default.
Who it is for
If you were somebody specific back home — the competent one, the funny one, the one with the career — and here you are a person with an accent who cannot finish a sentence at the bank.
- What you lost that nobody counts as a loss: status, fluency, being understood the first time.
- How you talk to yourself after getting something wrong in a language that is not yours.
- Who you are becoming here, as opposed to who you perform for the people back home.
Who it is not for
It is not a confidence course and it does not run on affirmations. There is no version of this where you walk out with a better opinion of yourself that you did not have to work for.
When it makes sense to get in touch. When you have started turning down invitations, when you compare yourself constantly to who you were before the move, or when the person you are here does not feel like anyone you recognise.
The first consultation is free. It is there for you to tell me what is going on and for me to see whether I can help, with no obligation to continue.Book the free consultation →
Frequently asked questions
Are sessions on self-esteem online, or at my home in Granada?
Whichever suits you: by video call from wherever you are, or at your home if you live in Granada. The session is the same; only the place changes. If you are not sure which fits, we look at it in the first consultation.
Is it normal to feel this much worse about myself since moving?
It is extremely common, and almost nobody says it out loud because it sounds ungrateful. Losing your fluency, your standing and your social shorthand in one go changes how you see yourself. It is not a sign that the move was a mistake.
I am an international student here for one year. Is it worth starting anything?
Often yes, provided we are honest at the outset about the time available and what can reasonably be worked on inside it. It is also perfectly reasonable to use a few sessions to get through a specific stretch rather than to begin long-term work.
I feel like a different, worse person in Spanish. Does that go away?
The gap narrows as the language does, but it is not only about vocabulary — it is about being recognised. We work on both: what you can do now with the language you have, and how you treat yourself while the rest catches up.
Can we work in English even though I want to build a life here in Spanish?
Yes, and the two do not contradict each other. You need one place where you can think at full speed and say the imprecise version of things. Learning Spanish usually gets easier from there, not harder.
What is the first consultation like?
The first consultation is free and we do it by phone or by video call. It is there for us to meet, put some order on what is going on and see whether I can help. You do not need to arrive with an answer, or to be able to explain exactly what is wrong.